What happened to me? I feel like this hiatus thing is becoming an all too common occurrence. My last post was August 1st which was around 139 days ago. Words cannot explain how upset I am about this. I’m going to attempt to explain it all. I wish I had real excuses but honestly it’s just been a year. A year that I will be very happy to be through with.
Where did it all start? I had plans for August! I was going to participate in ARCAugust (Spoiler: I totally failed), I was going to start new features and post on old ones. I was going to finally get back into blogging like I always planned to.
So what happened?
Well, in June there was ALA and I meant to post recaps but I just. . Didn’t. It was a lot of ‘work’ that I couldn’t really do. That sounds awful because of course blogging is work, but it just seemed so overwhelming to do it the way that I wanted to. If I couldn’t do it how I had it planned, I didn’t want to, I guess.
After ALA, I was so psyched to do other blogging though, I was feeling inspired after the conference. I really wanted to get my blog out there again. I tentatively tried with my posts. They weren’t the best I had done and didn’t happen as frequently as I would have liked. Still, there was a motivation.
In July, I celebrated my third year blogoversary with a new shiny self-hosted blog. This made me even more excited to finally just get into a routine, but as you can see, after August 1st that all just…faded.
It was work, it was a friendship breakup which I’m still taking so hard, it was feeling mentally unwell because of my own mind, the breakup as well, and the current state of the U.S. It was home and lack of space and a broken laptop. It’s putting off paying my blog hosting because of other things and not having enough money. It was everything. I wanted to post so much but the thought of doing it was draining. What was once my peace became more stressful overnight. I don’t even know how that happened. There isn’t a large following, no giant herd of people waiting on my every blog post, there’s not an alarm that goes off saying “Time to post, time to post!”. I put pressure on myself though, to be there.
I thought I was over the whole “I need to post regularly”, I’ve taken numerous hiatuses over the years. It doesn’t change the fact that I’d rather have more posts than less posts though. I’m going to very slowly try to get back into it though. This is like the girl who cried wolf but with blogging. “I’m going to try…” she said for the millionth time. It’s all I can say though.
I’ve lurked so much on Twitter over the past few months. Twitter’s became my new way of being involved while not going all in. Lurking is the keyword though because I mostly RT a lot of tweets about various issues going on right now. I’m taking to instagram as well as I finally have a phone which will allow me to use Instagram. If you’ve read my twitter, then you may know I’ve recently purchased an iPad. I’ve been needing a replacement for my laptop ever since it died back in April. It was September, I finally put money down to get this set aside for this month. It is my early Christmas present to myself. So far I really love it, it’s 12.9 inches because I knew I was going to use it to try to blog and write more, so I wanted it as big as possible.
I may have underestimated exactly how big 12.9 inches was. That’s okay though, I love it.
So, I don’t know if anyone is still along for the ride, but I’ll try to post more.